Today feels kinda of odd!!
No barking from the dog no smog, I had a fabulous day planned. Go to the office for a bit, then do some work, then home so I could prepare dinner and do my evening walk around my neighborhood. It was about 9:00 that morning, I was feeling energetic and happy, no worries in the world. The day before I was at my cardiologist office and he assured me everything was okay! I had a decent walk the night before and even a good night sleep, which is rare in most cases. So I stopped by my GM’s office for some small talk, we laughed a little, talked about our upcoming meeting and then back to my desk I went. Seated at my desk, I started to feel a sharp pain rush through my head and immediately became dizzy. At that moment, I knew something was wrong. I tried to call out to my co-worker, but I couldn’t speak, I tried to pick up my cell phone and couldn’t grab it. Frightened I stumbled out to my co-worker, who immediately called 911. I lost consciousness for a bit. My eyes felt crossed and I could hardly speak, the EMT mentioned my sugar was normal and my blood pressure was slightly high, during that time my legs were tingling like crazy. I was completely dumbfounded and terrified. Did I have a stroke????? There were no signs or warnings. What the hell is going on? How could this be? It felt like an out-of-body experience that I was watching above my head. I was just trying to process it all. But I was so thankful to be in the presence of my co-workers because everyone reacted so fast.
Since my stroke I have had several evaluations and my emotions have been running high, but yet I’m still positive. I’m blessed to be alive, so I’m not complaining at all. A few things run through my mind from time to time, like, Will I ever get back to work? Will I have another stroke? Not going to worry my big mind on that. God brought me through it. He’s amazing!!
It’s been almost 4 months since my stroke and my physical symptoms include hand and leg weakness on my right side, vision issues, short-term memory loss, arthritis in my right knee, cluttered speech at times, and intermittent ear ringing. It’s not bad when I think where I could be. Every day I shout because there is nothing like God’s grace and mercy. I’m so thankful for my husband, he is truly the best thing that has happened to me, along with my children. I also thank GOD because he is a miracle worker, all I’ve asked him for is supernatural healing and at an accelerated pace. I’m still the same person before the stroke and I believe much happier.
One of the hardest things has been that if people can’t see your issues, they often go unnoticed or ignored. I have a cane and it’s a little embarrassing for me at times, so if I don’t always give you eye contact it doesn’t mean you did something wrong.
I thank God every day for sending me a wonderful husband, he has had to endure some horrible things through this and watching your wife struggle can wreak havoc on a person’s mind. I give him so much praise for being with me every step of the way.
As a mother and wife I sometimes get frustrated dealing with the side effects of the stroke, yet I remain positive and created several affirmations including, “You got this girl”. Motivated by setting goals and inspiring others, I will never give up hope on a full recovery. Yes, and my writing skills have perished some,
Please don’t take life for granted or the people in it.
Actually, it was a pretty normal Tuesday. I had a fabulous day planned. Go t